LEAVE ME ALONE

Leave me alone i am a heart breaker, Look deeply into my heart, you might find a clue cause my eyes are deceptive. The words of my mouth cannot be trusted either, cause when i say i love you i feel the cold chilling of failed faith in myself...so do not press me hard i am stress. i look myself in the mirror i could not recognize the man i become or the person ama be so just mechoonu. i must have hurt a lota souls, just to find my soulmate, the one i could cherish, adore, and love for real. but the reality remain...although i try, still i still cant trust anyone do not take these rhetoric personal i have to say my mind...without a peace left behind so that i could rest in peace. My delicate heart was broken not once, not twice, not even thrice, each time my feelings was not spared neither the culprint show any remorse. I strongly believe i still have capabilities of love left in my vein but yet each time i trust, i wake up to new realities and another good reason not to thread those part no more. sometimes i feel i was tied to a stake bonded with the ramshackle of faith i could not crawl nor fly panting heavily to keep oxygen flowing through my body as if i have been chased by a lion i fear for my life and the life of other to come. If i break a bank i will go to jail, if i break a plate i get spanked but when my heart was broken no comet was seen. So leave me alone, i will break your heart for i dont know what i ma do next and your heart could be better alone than be with me cause i still bleeds. i hate to do it, but i might anytime, i wish i dont but i do. Forgiveness yes forgiveness i have tried but i think am not making too much success-, just maybe some heart could be spared. I dont think anyone deserve to be heartbroken. but for sure i will win a gold medal like carl lewis if there can be olympics for heartbreakers and brokenhearts...i can pack four golds either way. i receive my lecture from mean teachers and now i think i am heading for masters. Oh please get away from me, i dont wanna hurt your feelings, because i love you. i will hate to see you cry when you are heart broken, i dont know how or when, It like an endless dream of aemargedon cause i am sure i will one day. Today, tomorrow,....next week, next month, next year or sometimes for ever dunno dunno maybe never. i love you.....smiles no tears.